Goddess

i once met someone who i thought would become my wife, only i was foolish

quick to believe love happens like in the movies

it might, but not for me

at least not quite yet

truth is if she had been the one i wouldn’t have been ready

the more i progress in this healing journey,

the more i realize i’m right where i need to be

by myself

how can i expect love from another when i didn’t truly love myself?

i thought i did

then i stopped running from my shadow

i faced her, and it was heartbreaking

i didn’t realize my lifelong enemy was myself

it’s why i’ve never been able to feel safe

anywhere

because i’ve lived with myself in an unsafe mind

the years of trauma changed my inner script

i assumed the responsibility of carrying this weight

i ran, everywhere

even across the world

and can i be honest?

i never found what i was looking for

because it was in front of me this entire time

the woman looking back at me in the mirror

her scars, pain, and confusion are mine

in this holy matrimony,

i chose to accept her and love her

just as she is

the way i would love for someone else to do for me some day

i became my own best friend

my own safe space

my home

no matter where i go, i’m home

because Athena is with me