Goddess

i can be nothing to no one if i do not first take care of me

i have gotten quite used to putting other’s above myself

their feelings, their reality, their everything

in my search of love & acceptance,

i lost myself

in search of validation & remembrance,

i gave in

i allowed their values to be greater than my own

their words to carry more weight than my own

higher on a pedestal i placed them

6 feet beneath the ground i resided

no longer living a life worth living

was i ever?

do i even know myself?

the true me

the me without the weight of their opinions

without the burden of approval searching

without the need for validation

who am i then?

who am i truly?

i guess that’s the journey i am on

a quest for my true identity

a remembrance of who i have always been 

beneath the rubble of their inflicted pain

beneath their projections of the live i was “meant” to lead

i deserve better

so then,

i no longer seek for who i am without

i no longer ask or wait for approval

i simply turn within

& listen

for my truest self has been waiting for me to come home