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3 months since i walked away

i cannot thank myself enough

a lover girl down to the bone

but i must first love myself

being with you was self-hatred

i could no longer deny myself that way

i betrayed myself by joining partnership with the likes of you

someone who never deserved everything i am

we are not even on the same frequency

you cannot even reach me

you need to heal, truthfully

& stop hurting other souls with your inner war

my love was too sweet for you

i should have been more stingy with it

you live & you learn

oh, i learned

& i will never need that lesson again

the most painful lesson

i tried to rewrite my story with you

the story of getting an avoidant to love me

the right way

i finally rewrote it by leaving you

i reclaimed my power & realized i was never without it

see because you cannot go back

no matter how badly one would want to

but you can move forward

and write a new story

i do not need anyone to love me

especially you

someone who hates themselves

you could not love even if you tried

i would say i feel sorry for you

but i feel nothing for you

what goes around comes around

muah