Goddess

blindsided

by my care & affection for you

it’s like an affinity to you

there’s been no one else but you

through my mind

runs the thoughts i have of you

i go to sleep

enter my dreams

& i see you

even in my nightmares

you are there too

there to protect me

i think you like me too

that could be delusional

so i keep it to myself

the feelings are eating me alive

why did you come into my life?

say the things you do

friendly flirtation or something real?

you were in love

that fell through

is it because i am meant to be with you?

before getting carried away

i write my thoughts

share it with no one

the love came out of nowhere

whiplash made my head hurt

i don’t know how you feel

and it’s making me go insane

forbidden feelings

because you may not feel the same

& i will never know

because i will never share these thoughts with you

they are too precious & there is too much at risk

fear of rejection

or fear of the unknown

it’s all the same

i can’t say a thing

until i see you again

i take you in

see every part of you

then i’ll know it’s true

and if it’s worth enlightening you

i don’t want to lose what we have

our pure friendship

almost had a falling out

a few times

thought we would never speak again

i just didn’t realize it at the time

that i wanted anything but to be apart from you

talking to you excites me

i get jealous

and want you all to myself

but carefully i tread lightly

just call me back