Goddess

it won’t seem to leave my mind

i cannot escape the reality of this conundrum

my heart yearns for another

my own company never enough

trust me when i tell you,

i would rather it not be this way

how badly i wish i could live all of life completely on my own

the way i have done for years

without it feeling so brutal

detrimental to my livelihood

a suffering most times

when will my life find me?

when will i feel whole inside?

because all i know is this hole in my heart

this rip in the fabric of my soul

a taint in my spirit

that reminds me daily

it never rests

life after heartbreak just isn’t the same 

how i wish i never knew the taste of what love could be

because i have been left wanting more

left to desire a love i never got to fully actualize

is this a curse?

could i ever escape?

help me find my way out of this maze

i keep running in circles

i’ve seen this all before

release me

let me go

the memories haunting me

of a time i haven’t experienced yet

i cannot seem to escape a life after heartache