Goddess

en la noche

the memories haunt me the most

when the world is still

the thoughts come in

& they linger

they swirl around my mind

like dancing stars

yet they feel heavy

like a darkness engulfing me

…

me duele el alma

i have to forget your face

your smile tattooed into my brain

the once sweet girl turned evil lover

she never existed

did i make her up?

no, i don’t even entertain the thought

you made me question myself for too long

tengo que dejarte en el pasado

y nunca regresar

not even in my mind

…

how much longer will this pain accompany me?

it is the only thing that stays by my side, it seems

sin duda, de noche y de dia

me acompañan

déjame ser, déjame vivir

no puedo respirar

i cannot breathe…

should i dare never to love again?

sometimes it feels like the heartache will swallow me whole

as if the ocean waves will drown me

it pushes me in

punishes me for having cared, having loved

i dared to love once before

& look what it’s done to me

see the mess it left behind?

the mess you left

i am left to pick up the pieces

as i grieve & release

i may have broken it off

but you destroyed us

i’ll never forgive you

…

let the waves take this pain

wash it away, make me new

make me forget

let the memories fade away forever