Goddess

disappointments left & right 

or i simply held too high of hopes

expecting bare minimum & human decency

apparently that is too much in this world

knowing exactly who i am & the worth i possess

no, it does not save u from being let down,

mislead & confused

maybe it increases it, for i am not too easily swooned

u come to me, tell me in my face i am beautiful

i am of high regard

i am just too amazing

& then in the same breath disrespect me & my time

perhaps i should be grateful i am no longer in association with any of u

none of u are good enough for me

that is the perspective i should hold

& constantly require

i look back & the only wrong one can say i ever did

was care too much or love too hard

both of which are never mistakes

never wrong to put your heart on the line

i would do it all over again, but truly only for the one who is deserving of my affection

my love is vast & endless

it never runs out, never wavers

most of u are undeserving of such love

& i shall remain perfectly alone until one comes along & proves worthy

i shall never again waste my time

i would rather be alone than in the company of one who makes me feel so alone

i dedicate far too much energy & attention to my love of self

to my self-care, my growth & betterment,

my rest & healing,

to spend any of my precious minutes & hours worried if one likes me back

i like myself quite well, & that must be enough

i pour my focus into my studies, my passions, my hobbies

i must devote myself wholly & fully to me & only me

no distractions, no weakness

it has been made abundantly clear to me that no one knows how to love me properly

except only myself

so i strengthen that relationship, it is my only endeavor