Goddess

it is true what they say

u do wake up one day, & the pain doesn’t hit the same anymore

slowly but surely my days have only but improved

i am awaking with peace & hope

no longer torment or a hole in my heart

i stop & smell flowers

take a bouquet home

enjoy the savors of my delicious coffee

the stillness of a quiet morning

even the late hours of a night

& everything in between

u come to mind so much less

& when u do it is simply a remembrance of how bad it truly was being with u

& that i am all free now

i validate all my feelings, thoughts & emotions

even my experience, because u did try to make it seem u were a good partner

& that i was crazy

i remember one of the last things u ever said to me was~

“i reflected the last couple days, & i realized i wasn’t actually that bad at all”

laughable, ironic, senseless

u truly have no self-awareness, & it is sad

it is vexing that at your grown age u still do not acquire that basic life skill

& as someone working in law-enforcement, nonetheless

i guess u fit right in, since cops are known for their stupidity

keep on going through life & blaming everyone else but yourself

i know how to look in a mirror & own up to all of my actions

but i will no longer let ur memory or anyone like u manipulate me into thinking i was too much

this is my season of self-appreciation & adoration

& i am surrounded by energies who uplift & celebrate my sensitivity

when u only ever condemned it, as if u were some kind of god

worthy of the power to deem what is good & bad, i laugh

i love myself more right now than i ever have

but i always have

it is only more beautiful, sweet, & powerful now because there is nothing holding me back

nothing tearing me down

no one ruining my days, making me cry endless tears

that heavy pain in my chest? gone, just like u

i am the most sure of myself i have ever been

confidence & self-trust are my given

peace & a soft-life are my birthright

i am never giving it up

especially for someone as lame & lowlife as u, darling

so, leave me alone in peace & allow me to go back to the fairy goddess life i have known