Goddess

“it could all be so simple, like that Kali Uchis song”

isn’t that what u used to say to me?

well, darling, u must’ve missed the part where says,

“ten cuidado con mi corazón, hearts may break…”

translated to, “be careful with my heart”

u were anything but careful with my heart

remember how it didn’t even take long after meeting me for u to begin hurting me?

i still vividly remember the first time u raised ur voice at me

i was stunned & thought to myself, “who is this woman?”

i did not know her

did u come back around & apologize? yes

did the cycle then begin of u doing your worst then giving me empty promises 

of changed behavior & best intentions? yes

this whole time, i should’ve been more careful with my heart

& never have entrusted u with something so precious to me & delicate

u were never worthy of holding it

the sweet girl from the beginning said & did all the right things to make me believe

she was worthy of coming into my life

& protecting my heart

who knew i was letting in my biggest opp… what a joke

the ways u manipulated me should be studied

& the way u probably believe to this very day u barely did any wrongs…

so beyond me

not even a she said, she said

because my body kept the score

those in my life who love me are witnesses

they shall testify

my diaries, the receipts, even your bold ex

there is just no denying the extents u will go to

the lies u will tell to keep me in ur life

pathetic

it is all so simple now, because i am without u

life actually feels sweet now, & the only one entrusted with my heart is me

i can trust her with my life

because i love myself unconditionally 

u wouldn’t know about that

how sad

i smile because i’ll never have to see u again

but you’ll have to see my face everywhere

haunting your dreams & on the big screen

u know those dreams of mine u didn’t believe in?

they’re becoming realities

& you’re not here to weigh me down or hold me back from living my absolute best life

your belittling voice isn’t here to speak in my ear

spread lies that it is unachievable

honey, u don’t know me

u never did

if u did, u would know how loved i am by the universe

& that every single dream i have dreamt simply becomes my reality

all because i thought it

that’s how this works

now go, you’re disturbing my peace