Goddess

holding myself while it rains

& when it rains, it pours

the rain is unforgiving

it will cleanse but you cannot escape its effects

the pain worsens

the rain magnifies it

i hold myself even tighter

who else will?

…

heartache is love with nowhere safe to land

it feels scary here
like a desolate wasteland

i sit with it

trying to not disturb the peace

but i have known no peace in a while it seems

my heart aches & there is nothing to do with the pain

there is no one to take it out on

no one to hold accountable

the one who caused it, i let her off too easy

to preserve my inner sanctity

but now what, beloved?

…

si, yo fui la que te dejé

pero tu nos acabastes

nada en el mundo me duele mas

que ver tu sonrisa solo en mis memorias

quiero olvidar todo de ti

por que no puedo mas vivir así

sigue lloviendo

y el dolor sigue persiguiéndome

no me deja descansar

trato de vivir mi vida

y allí esta tu dolor en mi cuerpo

todavia siento las vibras

me dice mi cuerpo,

“amor, nos duele el corazón…

por favor, escucha

​​​​​​​y siéntate aqui con nosotros…

​​​​​​​no corres, solo siéntelo todo,

es para que mejores

y vivas de nuevo…

te amo”

…

let the rain wash it all away

the good, the bad, the terribly ugly

the pain & the memories

a complete reset

the sweet recollections hurt me the most

i shall never again remember you

erase it all, please have mercy on me

do you not see my need?

is the rain not powerful enough?

do not say it isn’t so

are you to tell me i must live this way?

oh…