Goddess

can you trust you will be guided?

& that the timing unfolds perfectly?

…

222 twice in 2 minutes

a sign, this must be

other plans fell through

i am on my way to the beach

already feels like april

& it is only february 

as i walk, i take my time

the sun is out shining so beautifully

i say an internal “thank you”

it has been ages, it seems

the tears rush out as if on command

as soon as i see the water blue clear

i find a bench to sit on

& birds accompany me

it wasn’t my intention

but my whole being feels safe here

enough to cry

even with strangers around me

sitting on desires of finding a home in a person

been listening to Kali’s Sincerely

the most soothing music

i go back in time to when this album released

i reminisce on my then existence

you were home to me

we came here once together

& stood right over there as we were happy

we kissed & took photos

faded like dreams upon waking

my tears wash it away

may i never again romanticize those memories

i cry in acceptance

knowing it wasn’t what i desired deeply

…

can i trust i will be guided?

& that it is on its way to me?