Goddess

i burned all ur love letters

i threw away the gifts

any leftover remnants of u

all the photos & messages

gone forever

i may have left u 4 months ago

but u lingered for a while

don’t let it get to ur head, ur nothing special

just the first person to show me that kind of love

a trauma bond

u opened my wounds, & bandaged them with an “i’m sorry”

& “i’ll change”

empty promises, they’re all the same

u had to lie to keep me & to be worthy of me

what a world

what was real?

i question everything now

are u happy?

i should never have had to learn how to walk away

but i did, even with the heavy ache

& i chose that over the loneliness of staying

with every passing month

& breakup anniversary,

i learn to forget u better

i learn to live without u better

what a life

i’m not even able to miss u properly because what is there to miss?

the sleepless nights?

the nightmares when i finally could sleep?

the ache in my chest & tummy?

the stress of being with u?

u stole so much from me

things i’ll never get back

time i will never get back

i have to let it go

just like ur letters

i watched them slowly burn

allowing myself catharsis

allowing myself to grieve

so, i grieve.