Goddess

several sips of my coffee later,

taking deep breaths, almost sighs

i await…

& keep waiting

for things to stay the same, seemingly so

but i feel i am on the verge of something

everything seems the same, yet it also feels different somehow

i cannot explain

why does it feel like i am on the brink of a new world?

as if my body is preparing for my 4D to bleed into my 3D

perhaps it is the moon’s power

555 turned 556, signaling completion

it is sunday, after all

the day everything changes

february 1st, will i see it today?

the month of love

my favorite holiday

don’t disappoint me now

love magnet oil in abundance

carefully placed on my pulses

my neck, my hands

the smell enriches me

brings me back to the present

the only thing we must overcome is our brains

& not in a fighting way

don’t fight yourself

love is the answer, she is only trying to protect you

our brains may be clouded sometimes

whatever the reason~ hormones, stress, exhaustion

be kind, be patient

& remember not everything you think is true or fact

phew~ what a relief

it is true, it matters how you feel

let it set you free that it is temporary

ever-changing

it ebbs & flows

allow it, like waves in the ocean

like the swirling wind in the air

here one moment, gone the next

i give myself much love in abundance

& i await this new world

when will it arrive?

is she here?

i feel it all around me yet i cannot see it with my physical eyes

what torture, in truth protection

timelines matter deeply

we must meet at the right time

it must happen in the way outlined in the stars

& it will, no denying it

planetary alignment the same way

i put on music to accompany my utter aloneness 

we are but a speck in the universe

stardust just the same

once dancing in the vast universe

now grounded to an odd planet

embodied in this way

living in this time, for a purpose beyond me

i know nothing at all