Goddess

1 full year

4 seasons

12 months

365 days

my body feels like it’s in the air

& she knows something is missing

something familiar swirls around me

but with missing parts

it’s not whole

not the entire story

there’s a frozen smile

it sits in my subconscious

with smiling eyes

missing from my life

a feeling of warmth & love

a hug from afar

couldn’t you lie just a little longer?

& continue the facade

i wouldn’t mind

if i was going to fall into a trap anyway

let it be sweet & long-lasting

at least, my love,

be my lover a little while longer

so my nightmares wouldn’t begin so soon

talk to me nice

so my body wouldn’t be hurt this much

be careful with my heart

like you promised you’d be

those beautiful promises we vowed to each other

they materialized in my dreams

in this fantasy where heartache doesn’t know me

& i don’t know her

we were never acquainted

& i thank you for that

my life always feels light

& you’re the reason why

so,

i continue dancing with ghosts

meeting with the memories over tea

loving on somebody who doesn’t even know me

for if i were to wake from this,

i may never recover

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