Goddess

so maybe it’s just me

maybe i learn this dance for one

feelings diluted in a world full of noise

i arise slowly & lonely yet once more

carrying the weight of my burdens alone

i learned to love

then i learned to let go

against my will & against my very nature

maybe it’s not the end

maybe i’ll love again

the maybe hurts more than words can say

in a generation full of sorrows,

can hope truly be a companion?

these tears have accompanied me more than lovers & friends

bought myself the flowers, took myself on dates

self~love has had a big part in my life

that’s never been the problem 

what if love of self isn’t enough?

death seems the sweetest escape

for a troubled soul who’s only setback is feeling too much

i was never meant to live here

it is cruel to force me

allow me to gently fall asleep

& never wake up

please, i beg