Tag: self-adoration
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leave me lonely
i deserve better in every aspect in every way simply for being who i am with the heart i hold the mind i possess unfortunately, there is no one doing it like me people are too quick to be fake, petty, jealous, iffy, disloyal, dishonest haven’t u heard? a friend to all is a friend…
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pretty lies
oddest of dreams last night my soft waking sound saved me at just the right time in the middle of a bad date she raised her voice at me demanded to see my phone when i would never hide anything from my partner would have gladly shown her if it wasn’t the first date what…
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vast & endless
disappointments left & right or i simply held too high of hopes expecting bare minimum & human decency apparently that is too much in this world knowing exactly who i am & the worth i possess no, it does not save u from being let down, mislead & confused maybe it increases it, for i…
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renewed
i remember as a child feeling such excitement for the first day of school i would never be able to sleep the night before i loved going to school & learning over the years the happiness about it dwindled slowly it became a drudge to go this was when bullies & mean kids entered the…
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te amo, mi vida
morning skies, morning rise luis miguel’s Romance on the record player a stretch to begin my day coffee’s been brewed, the smell enriches my home mi cafecito con leche y azúcar in hand the candles have all been lit, spritzed the sweet pink perfume skincare has been laid softly on my beautiful skin skin so…
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15 minutes
that old apple watch u gave me, u know~ the one your ex gifted u & u didn’t bother telling me until months later~ yeah, i went & traded it in & got me something newer & better just like i did u i traded u in for my peace, my life, my happiness i got…
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first kiss
nothing like the feeling of the first time your lips meet we were always destined to meet this way & be in this moment where u want things to last forever separating just for long enough to admire her smile then locking our lips once again the minutes turn to hours & it is never…
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be still
the art of being right here feels like an in-between in between worlds, realities, happenings the stillness almost discomforting it surrounds me the quiet, the nothingness is this what peace feels like? finally there is no one to torment me to take me from this place to tell me who i am not i almost…
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truest love
what a life i have lived that i can say i have loved, & that i have loved deeply that i cared even deeper so much so others’ burdens became my own what they felt, i felt even more out of true love i never do anything half-way i give it my all, my entire…
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linger
i burned all ur love letters i threw away the gifts any leftover remnants of u all the photos & messages gone forever i may have left u 4 months ago but u lingered for a while don’t let it get to ur head, ur nothing special just the first person to show me that…
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night owl
7:30 a.m. that is the time i set my alarm i technically don’y need to be up until 8 i could even get by with 8:30 or 9 if i’m feeling bold but today i decided to set it for 7:30 rolled out of bed at 7:35 by 7:55, i was sitting here at my…
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cancer moon
i know no other way to be my chart is so unique to feel everything so deep even in my bones how mystique walking into rooms i can feel the energy maybe there are those who envy they ponder, how could this be? explain it to me is it some magic trick? were they born…
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written in the stars
several sips of my coffee later, taking deep breaths, almost sighs i await… & keep waiting for things to stay the same, seemingly so but i feel i am on the verge of something everything seems the same, yet it also feels different somehow i cannot explain why does it feel like i am on…
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so in love
love finds you in the pouring rain eyes closed mind open ascending crown baptized something made new i am the magician you are the magic wielding you perfection
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to be a woman
awaiting, sometimes despairing will things stay the same? alone-some, never true i feel trapped in my reality extra sweetener in my coffee today in need of it it is natural, i say the heat dancing off the surface of my cafecito dancing stars off my peripheral but they are just my candles my lunar wax…
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simple
it is not that simple though, is it? i knew i did not deserve that treatment everything in me rebelled it warned me, tried to protect me, shielded me i communicated fervently, spoke up i wanted different the glimpses of a safe love i saw & felt in the beginning couldn’t that have lasted? once…
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wedding bells
what is love? it is to listen to your partner whenever anything ails them & never blaming them for how they feel what is love? it is to hold them through whatever may transpire especially dire circumstances what is love? it is to choose & be chosen at all times certainly when it may feel…
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light as air
it is true what they say u do wake up one day, & the pain doesn’t hit the same anymore slowly but surely my days have only but improved i am awaking with peace & hope no longer torment or a hole in my heart i stop & smell flowers take a bouquet home enjoy…
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flower
even flowers are delicate & soft they are a marvel to gaze upon all the different colors & shapes they attract such admiration yet they are sensitive some are so fragile they require careful handling however, we do not blame the flowers we simply handle them with care & blame ourselves for their mishandling so…
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ocean
en la noche the memories haunt me the most when the world is still the thoughts come in & they linger they swirl around my mind like dancing stars yet they feel heavy like a darkness engulfing me … me duele el alma i have to forget your face your smile tattooed into my brain…
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protection//redirection
i spritz my sweet versace perfume i anoint my palms with protection oil i light these candles under the new moon i gaze into a photo of Athena in the most beautiful pink frame this is her altar, after all roses & flowers all around a mirror to see my beauty lip glosses & oils,…
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good luck
i hope u think about me when u see the color pink i hope u think about me when u hear a kali uchis song & that you can’t get me out of your head i hope u think about me when u feel emotions arise within your body knowing i taught u it was okay…
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sealed
it is written in her bones etched into the very fabric of her being the stardust in her dns even speaks of it she couldn’t outrun this purpose if she tried … long ago, before she was born a prophecy foretold of a girl who would rise from a seemingly normal upbringing & she would be a woman of nations a…
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escape
detrimental to my livelihood a suffering most times when will my life find me? when will i feel whole inside? because all i know is this hole in my heart this rip in the fabric of my soul a taint in my spirit that reminds me daily it never rests it won’t seem to leave…
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111
see the changes all around? swirling around me like a sort of magic i feel transformed & renewed walked through the toughest of fires & arose brand new ascended into higher realms ones they could never follow me to like pulling the sword out of excalibur, the life i am living can only be done…
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candles, crystals, & oils
after this bath i will feel lighter, i will feel clear i’ll let it all out right now & i won’t take u with me through the rest of my year no, this ends here because i say so & i always have the final say see, this is my life my beauty, my mind…
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dawn of a new age
i experienced the worst pain of my life this past year the sweetness of a first love was taken from me it was only a facade successfully love-bombed & lured into a trap her first chance, she attacked & since then, i was never the same i had to protect myself constantly she had her…
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beauty & destruction
here’s me wishing i left sooner so i could save myself a world of pain wish i never knew you so maybe right now i’d be okay did you see me from afar & think to yourself, “she seems pure & sweet, let me come in & destroy this beauty” it seems, oh it seems…
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ashes to glory
unfortunately, we never met not ever, not truly what you saw, you condemned you rejected wholeheartedly with the coldest of hearts because you reject your own depths hate your own truest self … my very first love & yet it was not true love for if it was true, it would have been life-giving fulfilling,…
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affinity to you
blindsided by my care & affection for you it’s like an affinity to you there’s been no one else but you through my mind runs the thoughts i have of you i go to sleep enter my dreams & i see you even in my nightmares you are there too there to protect me i…
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444
surrounded & protected now & always i have never been without my angels have always been by my side from the moment i was born until now forever will i be guided forever loved & valued for they chose to aid me in this life before i was even born my spirit team appointed to…
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333
3 months since i walked away i cannot thank myself enough a lover girl down to the bone but i must first love myself being with you was self-hatred i could no longer deny myself that way i betrayed myself by joining partnership with the likes of you someone who never deserved everything i am…
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no love like mine
it is love i want so it is love i seek a fruitless journey so it has seemed for the love i seek is me a love like no other i have met my shadow deep seen & accepted is she of course no other love could compare to the love i give me many…
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forever enthralled
i am other-worldly out of this realm & i don’t mean that in a conceited way i mean that in a soul manner was i even meant to be born here? maybe i was but i was never meant to fit in born to stand out i think in different ways i sound different i…
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winners and Losers
in life it seems there are either winners or losers those who gain or those who lose my soul met yours & believed it gained saw a connection & thought this was it you gained a beauty you won at life when i entered little did i know you were another lesson not a forever love…
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amándome y encontrándome
igualita como soy quiero siempre estar encontrar quien soy yo cuando nadie más me ve solita yo en mi cuarto feliz haciendo mi maquillaje yo misma me entiendo yo me acepto como nadie más como voy esperar que me amen correcto si yo misma soy perfecta gracias a Diosa soy bella mi mente linda mi…
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new
the date changed to 2025 yet things are as bleak as ever the trees remain barren the sun remains hidden flowers are nowhere to be found perhaps this isn’t the beginning during spring the rains come they renew the land help plants grow invite back creatures we lost in the winter that is more of…
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dolor
hurt beyond words pain that lasts a lifetime how much longer will it last i bear it another day to hopefully see it pass those who gave me life took it away just the same yearning to be seen yet burned my their eyes vulnerable to a tee yet lonely all the time • •…
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try
it is exhausting & fruitless to try to try being understood to try being accepted to try being loved sometimes no matter what you do, it will never be enough it will never be enough for the wrong people scouring the planet & the ends of the earth for just an ounce of love in return…
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bendecida
“todo tiene solución” decía mi mamá it takes a wise mind to slow down just enough to tune into higher frequencies and not give up what almost took my life taught me self-love and patience i catch glimpses of a future yet to be born reminiscing on a time that does not yet exist i…
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burn
why am i always the girl betrayed always the after-thought the second choice yet never the first the one to be desired most i’m wanted by many yet pursued by none as if i’m not worth more than diamonds than rubies and gold combined deserving of the moon and the light she shines unworthy are…
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swan
I saw your face once again a beautiful tan complexion with deep brown eyes beautiful lips and a warm smile still just as beautiful if not more the love I felt for you long ago came rushing back to my soul it was all dream-like as if I was meeting you again for the very…
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within then without
i can be nothing to no one if i do not first take care of me i have gotten quite used to putting other’s above myself their feelings, their reality, their everything in my search of love & acceptance, i lost myself in search of validation & remembrance, i gave in i allowed their values…
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what if she’s my lover?
i once met someone who i thought would become my wife, only i was foolish quick to believe love happens like in the movies it might, but not for me at least not quite yet truth is if she had been the one i wouldn’t have been ready the more i progress in this healing…
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The Moon’s Favorite Daughter
thunderstorms and sunless skies she took her hand, placed it in mine butterflies loving energy and a vibrant light in the darkness of the night the moon shines divine purest magic she walks on water dances on the seas with the touch of her hand the waves bow to me consumed with love in the…
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centered
something can be learned from anything you go through. it takes a wise mind to slow down just enough to tune into higher frequencies. and not give up. what almost took my life taught me self-love and patience. i catch glimpses of a future yet to be born. i remain in the present fulfilling my…
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tea
a woman so defiantly herself can be threatening to know she does not need anything of you only herself can be frightening head held high eyes of fury she faces the world unapologetically her hair her crown her poise illuminating her skin like silk the clothes hanging on her effortless body mesmerizing the tapestry that…
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diosita
you’re the reason my journey began the thing i most wanted in this world above plans & dreams you were my meant to be that never was and heartbroken i lay on the floor of my first bedroom apartment away from prying eyes and dear sorrows together is what we never became am i the…
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solo travels for the brave
I’ve solo traveled quite a lot within the last 2 years. I’ve met all kinds of people, tried learning all kinds of languages, and had so many types of foods. It’s been a unique and interesting experience. However, it has not been easy. Like many people say, you learn a lot about yourself as…
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